"I Wish You Would"

By: Aoki

SongFic

DISCLAIMER: The song "I Wish You Would " totally belongs to Train( and/or anyone else who has claim to it.) This is for fan purposes. Also The Samurai Troopers belong to Sunrise INK. and anyone else who has owner ship to them.

AUTHOR NOTES: This was suppose to be Sages point of view and the sequel to "The Best I've Ever Had ", But I don't know if it turned out to well has a sequel...

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I sit looking at the phone. I think it would be the perfect time to call him, but in the back of my I think that he doesn't want me to, he probably is happy without me. Why else would he ruin our relationship like that?

That is about how every night goes. I want to call Touma so badly, but I can't. It would hurt me to much to talk to him, and I don't think I would be able to bare it for very long. I know I did say some hurtful things that night, but he did something that hurt me worse. God how are we going to straiten this mess out? I turn and look at my bed. Why should I even think of sleeping, I know I wouldn't get any, anyway. That’s how its been for the past month. I always have dreams of him. They just wont go away. Until I contact him some how.

I glance at my desk on the far corner of the room. I can write him a letter, that way I don't need to actually talk to him. I get up and walk across the room to the desk, and site down.

Dear Touma,

Its been a while. From all my nights of restlessness and days that lag on forever, my only thought was on you. I still don't know if I can forgive you but I'm willing to try. I know I said a lot of mean things to

you, but I was upset, and over reacting. Sometimes I miss you so much I pretend we still live together, and that your just out, but your coming back. So I wait, but deep down I know your not going to come. Its kind of pathetic isn't it? I site and wait knowing fully your not going to come anytime soon, but I do it anyway. I guess that should tell you that I love you even though you hurt me like you did.

You told me once that without me you would loss your mind. I know that goes the same for me. I feel locked up in this little apartment I got. I want to comeback to you. So badly sometimes I would do just about anything. Then I realize I wouldn't be able to look at your face for to long, it would hurt to much. You hurt me so badly I can't describe how I felt when I left.

And if I come back I'll stay. Of course only if you want me to. I'll promise never to yell at you. It hurt me so much when I finally realized what happened. I never want to feel that bad again. I just want it to be the way we were before any of this ever happened.

Touma we all have moments where we don't know what to do. I was lost for two months. I was lost without you, and I want to come back, I don't just want to see you I need to see you. If I don't I really don't know what I would do. I've been in a downward spiral since I left. I know you are the only one who can help me get my life back on track. I'm willing to forgive and forget. I also hope you can forgive me, I know I said a lot of hurtful things.

It may have only been about 2 months, but it seems like eternity since I last saw your smiling face. I know I will be able to forgive you, and forget about any of this horrid nightmare. I wished that we could be together on the anniversary when we first became an item. I hope that comes true. It all depends on you.

Touma its been way to long since we've been together. Lets meet some time and talk things out. I'm sure we can be able to come to an agreement. We can still be the way we were. Touma I love you, and I never fully realized that until we split up on such a horrible note. You wouldn't believe the trouble I've had trying to think of a way to say that. At this point I really don't care about anything. I just want you back.

I just want to see you everyday, I want to hold you again, to sleep by you, just to be with you would make my world turn right back around. The way it should be. The way it was.

Touma I knew that there would always be a reason to see you again. I knew that I would want to see you again. Now I need to see you again. You were my light. Some how I always thought you would come here to find me. Come here to apologies. Come here to take me back with you where I belong. How we belong. You never came. I thought you would be smart enough to know how to track me down, but I guess I was wrong.

I know I should have contacted you a lot sooner, but I was never ready to.

I'm getting lonely, hell with that, I am lonely. Touma Please write back, I need to hear from you. I need to know your okay, I need to be with you again. If I don't hear from you, I do not know what I might do. I want to come back to you and I may just do that.

-Seiji Date